Change in honesty

Before I ended up in hospital I had a very strict set of rules about who I would tell what, there were a handful of friends who I trust lots and there was my shrink so he could do things with all the knowledge he needed. Then aside from that I would not tell people everything, even my parents only got a limited picture of what was going on. This worked for me and made me feel safe and that I had control of the situation.

Then after November and being discharged my mum was staying with me and told me that when it came to my health she was taking a more pro-active role in how things were done. I knew that the home treatment team who were looking after me would have access to all my notes and thus know everything I do at different times. This now left me with the how much I let my mum know, she decided that with the home visits she would sit in the meetings leaving me no real option with how honest I had to be.

So over the 14 days she was with me she then got to learn a lot more than she knew about how I did things. She knew all my methods of dealing with things ranging from the mild end all the way to the big things that I used. Some things I expected that she would give me a lecture about doing them. But I was a bit surprised that as she learnt about these methods not once did she tell me that I shouldn’t use them.