I hate the universe

In the past three months, I have had lots of time to think and revaluate my life; I am making lots of changes to it that I should have done years ago to be beneficial to me. This all comes down to putting myself in a coma and then having that change how I look at the world. Now for most things, this has been beneficial for me I saw things that I was doing that were detrimental to me but not aware of them so it helped me address them.

In other areas, it has spurred me on to make changes that have been suggested that I do for years, and now I can see why and I am making those changes. Things like asking for help when I first spot that I need it rather than letting it escalate and then having to deal with a worse situation. This would have resulted in all sorts of problems.

On these two fronts, this has been beneficial and productive for me, and I have embraced them as it has allowed me to keep my bipolar stable for the last three months; the longest I can remember it being like that. So some changes have been beneficial to my life and are having a positive effect.

Where I have found it harder to deal with are with how other people have always seen me, and now because of my new look at how I see life how I can see what they mean. Some are easier to deal with than others, for example accepting that I am up there when it comes to being intelligent is not too hard…