Living with bipolar

When you have a serious mental health condition it can make it feel like it is running your life, putting limitations on what you can and can’t do, having to avoid stress full situations the best you can, cancelling plans you have made because your mood is not in the place to enjoy it. I could go on with lots of things that you have to do when you have this condition.

For me, it developed in my teenage years, so at the time the moods that I was expressing back then were just put down to being a teenager and I would do things that are not too good to help me manage them as it was hard at this point to deal with this happening.
As a result of this I then developed a very bad relationship with food, to feel like I was in control I would restrict how much I ate when my mood was in a place I didn’t like. Later this developed into anorexia, but that is a different blog post.

It was only when I turned 18 that I went to see my GP about it because I was having deep dark depressive periods that I found hard to get through. So I told my GP about this part of things and he decided that I just had depression as there was no need to tell him that at other times I felt on top of the world and could do anything. So he sent me home with some anti-depressants, the worst medication for someone with bipolar to take as it is documented that it can make things worse than they…