Post Coma Insight

After surviving the coma I put myself in through doing something very stupid, I have been seeing situations in a totally different way than how I did before. I have this new level of self-awareness and being able to see all sides to different situations whereas before I would only see what I wanted to see.

As at the moment, I am really having some body image issues related to my anorexia, I am feeling really uncomfortable at the weight that I am. So I mentioned this to my therapist and that I wanted to lose some weight putting myself in the middle of the BMI range rather than near the top where I am at the moment. So I brought it up at one of my sessions with her telling her that I was thinking about doing this, but sensibly rather than how I would normally lose weight.

I was told that she couldn’t stop me from doing this but that it would be a terrible idea for me to do this, as my eating disorder is currently classed as being active and she knows that when she hands me over from her care to the therapy for grief; she is almost certain that will cause me to drop weight like I was relapsing fully so needed to be at a weight that was as high as possible so I would not end up in the at-risk range quickly.

Now in the past, I would have listened to what she said and would more than likely ignored it and done my own thing because that is what I wanted to do even if it was not the right thing to do. But now listening to what she was saying I was processing what she was saying and listening to the other side of the argument for the…