The bits of Bella you never got to see

Online she had an amazing presence; well you don’t get that many followers without doing something right. She would help people the best she could, she would advise people on surgeries that she had had so they knew what to expect. She would talk to people about coming out, or that dreade3d first-day full time. In short, you got to see an amazing person through your screens.

In-person she was essentially no different at all, be it while she was working and giving people tips that should help them solve a problem. Or her helping my mental health in ways I never thought would be possible. There would still be mild mood swings, but not the huge ones I used to get; hell she even liked it when I got a little hypo-manic as she liked seeing me full of energy and a spring in my step looking for some mischief to start, normally nothing major but things like deliberate winding up GC people for fun, and seeing what their reaction would be.

The depression was the hardest part normally for me to deal with, but when we were together there was the very little major depressive episode. There was one, and we could both see it coming, and one Friday evening after we had eaten it started to come out, bit by bit it dropped out until it was all revealed, sort of like a melting ice sculpture. She had recently got into an online game, meaning she was spending a lot of time…