Why we lie to mental health staff

A post from 2014 but is relevant to the next blog post

Last night as I was falling asleep, my brain did its usual let’s think of a million and one different things. The main thing is what am I going to say to all the medical people this week; in that I am seeing the HTT on Tuesday, my psychiatrist on Wednesday and my GP on Thursday. All to talk about how I am feeling and what’s been happening of late.

Now from the past few days, I can tell that this episode is in its final throws and baring something major happening, I should be seeing the back of it very soon; which is more than welcome. In fact, for the bulk of yesterday, I felt for me what is ‘normal for the bulk of the day and only in the evening felt a little off colour, which resulted in an early night and as such am awake now at 4am.

Well, the more I think about this the more I realise just how much information I withhold from MH professionals and especially during this episode. Self-harm and suicide have been their big questions this time, purely because they were the things that I mentioned to my GP when I got the referral to the HTT. Now they know I traditionally self-harmed once during this episode, by that I mean I cut myself with a razor blade several times. But they don’t know about the other ways in which I have done it, they don’t know that I deliberately made myself…