Would I make them go away if I could

Would I take a pill that would make my mental health conditions disappear? They do place limitations on my life and what I can do, certain things I need to avoid as much as possible because I know they will make me ill. Without them then I could have gone on to be a barrister and had a good life as a result of it. I would have still been drawn to human rights and equality issues as they are in my opinion the cornerstone of any democratic society.

I wouldn’t have the stress that comes with eating food because of my eating disorder, nor would I avoid eating in public with other people. Or when feeling stressed feel the pull of it to give me the illusion of control I get from it. I would have a normal relationship with food, not the twisted one that I have instead.

Seeing it in writing the limitations that would be lifted from my life does look rather appealing to go with. The difference between having them and not having them is slightly tempting; the alternative looks shiny and nice to go with. Knowing that I would be able to push myself in ways that would allow me to live my life to its full potential.

Having the limits removed and being able to push to the maximum of my ability is tempting; I would be able to push the limits of what society would think I should do. Pushing down the legal avenue aiming for the letters QC after my…